It is you who sees the beginning and end
You are the all knowing one
You are also all powerful
I know you can hear me
Let these words not land outside those ears
I have a running desire
Like rivers which ebb up and down in flow
I desire to be where I was two years ago
This year marks the beginning of three
I can now only imagine the growth of my heart,
the experience gained, and the relationships made
It is only an imagination though
It is not real
I desire not to be where I am now
Is this desire wrong of my heart?
Then, Lord, pull it out!
Why allow me to wrestle with it?
Do you wish I wrestle and battle, so that I steal, kill, and covet?
My desire seems two faced
Honorable in its intention, but loathsome when unfulfilled
Grant my thirst in your water, not my blood thirst
Grow in me another desire to persevere
Allow a spirit of contentment to rule
Be a spirit of willingness to stay
May peace reign, not chaos
Submit my desires to yours
Let grace move my actions
Not let pride smear the way
It is you and only you
May not the desire undo it